Crying Game
I remember my sister saying:
‘David never cries, it’s so weird’
after our father’s funeral—
I stood there watching others
do just that:
her
my mother
my cousins
my aunt
his friends
and
strangers
who I didn’t know
or
recognize
as I fought back
my own
pushing those feelings
deep down
into my guts
hoping that’s where
they’d stay.
I’ve never felt comfortable
crying in front of other people
and even though I’ve done it before—
it’s a sight rarely seen.
It usually happens when I’m alone
and my insides spontaneously combust—
as I stand in the shower; a place I can’t feel my tears.
Sad Shower in New York -- Tracey Emin
Ah...I lived this absolutely.. we live to hide our tears..and was it chaplin who said he cries when he walks in the rain so others cannot see him cry..
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