Heather Jephcott writes

Fear Haunted Her Heart  

 

Fear haunted her heart,

her thoughts

remaining a reason

for why.

She was dressed dowdily,

her clothing did not fit,

even when dressing her best

she made sure no curves were showing

and that she looked like

one complete frump.

Fear kept her

from smiling openly, widely

even when her heart

had

some

happiness.

She made sure any smiles were small

never directing them towards men.

When asked to smile for the camera

the smiles were tentative

quickly disappearing.

There was one who was always trying

to rule her life

with an iron fist.

She wanted him

to have no cause

for jealousy,

zero reason

to think she was trying to attract.

Almost always

she felt like a nobody

but this was a time to shine,

the opportunity of her son's wedding.

She did not take the opening offered,

didn't even see it

for fear would not allow her

to make anything

of herself.

 

 Eye Timid Woman -- Jack Mast