Tuesday, April 3, 2018

June Calender writes


Aubade (#2)

Night turns to dawn, graying as it ages
as we humans do. The gray grows
lighter, brighter, whiter as has my hair.
I hear random tweets, squeaks, cheeps,
calls, bits of song, voices of unseen little
birds whose names I do not know.
I do not hear all, I’m told, my aging eardrums
have ceased vibrating to the highest tones.

No matter, I never learned to name
the little birds or their songs. I ignored
the nature’s music for man-made
instruments and the complexities created
for them solo or in large ensemble.
Like most of my human counterparts
I have valued the capacity for creativity
of homo sapiens above all other creatures.

As nature dies from human neediness
songs of wrens and whales decrease
and we who wake to grayness become
older and poorer.
Mom holds a young photo of herself to her face The Strange Ones -- Tony Luciani    

1 comment:

  1. An aubade is a song or instrumental composition concerning, accompanying, or evoking daybreak. In the strictest sense, it is a song from a door or window to a sleeping woman. Philip Larkin wrote a memorable "Aubade":

    I work all day, and get half-drunk at night.
    Waking at four to soundless dark, I stare.
    In time the curtain-edges will grow light.
    Till then I see what’s really always there:
    Unresting death, a whole day nearer now,
    Making all thought impossible but how
    And where and when I shall myself die.
    Arid interrogation: yet the dread
    Of dying, and being dead,
    Flashes afresh to hold and horrify.

    The mind blanks at the glare. Not in remorse
    —The good not done, the love not given, time
    Torn off unused—nor wretchedly because
    An only life can take so long to climb
    Clear of its wrong beginnings, and may never;
    But at the total emptiness for ever,
    The sure extinction that we travel to
    And shall be lost in always. Not to be here,
    Not to be anywhere,
    And soon; nothing more terrible, nothing more true.

    This is a special way of being afraid
    No trick dispels. Religion used to try,
    That vast moth-eaten musical brocade
    Created to pretend we never die,
    And specious stuff that says No rational being
    Can fear a thing it will not feel, not seeing
    That this is what we fear—no sight, no sound,
    No touch or taste or smell, nothing to think with,
    Nothing to love or link with,
    The anaesthetic from which none come round.

    And so it stays just on the edge of vision,
    A small unfocused blur, a standing chill
    That slows each impulse down to indecision.
    Most things may never happen: this one will,
    And realisation of it rages out
    In furnace-fear when we are caught without
    People or drink. Courage is no good:
    It means not scaring others. Being brave
    Lets no one off the grave.
    Death is no different whined at than withstood.

    Slowly light strengthens, and the room takes shape.
    It stands plain as a wardrobe, what we know,
    Have always known, know that we can’t escape,
    Yet can’t accept. One side will have to go.
    Meanwhile telephones crouch, getting ready to ring
    In locked-up offices, and all the uncaring
    Intricate rented world begins to rouse.
    The sky is white as clay, with no sun.
    Work has to be done.
    Postmen like doctors go from house to house.

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