James Baldwin’s Nothing
he said he was not French in France,
he simply did not exist,
he was invisible, a relative reprieve,
and it was what he needed *
here, beyond the borders of America,
I am a James Baldwin nothing
an invisibility faring me far better
than my visibility in those States,
united against me to label me
to identify me as their nigger
here I am a James Baldwin nothing,
an obligatory nothing, categorically dismissed,
not enough of something to bother with
despising me
here I am a James Baldwin nothing,
where there’s some solace
but nothing like real solace,
where there’s some peace
but nothing like real peace,
where there's some dignity
but nothing like real dignity,
where there’s some freedom
but nothing like real freedom
I am that James Baldwin nothing
that something more than, that something
far bigger than america’s nigger
here I am something of a nothing,
a James Baldwin nigger
* https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Wht4NSf7E4
James Baldwin -- Karen M
he said he was not French in France,
he simply did not exist,
he was invisible, a relative reprieve,
and it was what he needed *
here, beyond the borders of America,
I am a James Baldwin nothing
an invisibility faring me far better
than my visibility in those States,
united against me to label me
to identify me as their nigger
here I am a James Baldwin nothing,
an obligatory nothing, categorically dismissed,
not enough of something to bother with
despising me
here I am a James Baldwin nothing,
where there’s some solace
but nothing like real solace,
where there’s some peace
but nothing like real peace,
where there's some dignity
but nothing like real dignity,
where there’s some freedom
but nothing like real freedom
I am that James Baldwin nothing
that something more than, that something
far bigger than america’s nigger
here I am something of a nothing,
a James Baldwin nigger
* https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Wht4NSf7E4
James Baldwin -- Karen M
James Baldwin was an American novelist, essayist, playwright, poet, and social critic. His observations on American race relations, leading to a number of essays including "Nobody Knows My Name." One of his book-length essays, "No Name in the Street," discussed his own reaction to the assassinations of three of his personal friends, the Civil Rights Movement leaders Medgar Evers, Malcolm X, and Martin Luther King, Jr. An unfinished manuscript, "Remember This House," a memoir of his personal recollections of the three men, became the basis for Raoul Peck's 2016 Academy Award-nominated documentary film "I Am Not Your Negro." Elijah Muhammad, the founder of the Nation of Islam ("Black Muslims"), once asked him about his religious beliefs, and he replied that he had left the church decades earlier; "And what are you now?" Baldwin explained, "Nothing. I'm a writer. I like doing things alone." He left the US at the age of 24 and settled in Paris, France, where he lived most of his adult life, though he also spent some time in Switzerland and Turkey, and in 1986, the year before his death, the French government made him a Commandeur de la Légion d'Honneur .
ReplyDeleteThe giver (for Berdis)
If the hope of giving
is to love the living,
the giver risks madness
in the act of giving.
Some such lesson I seemed to see
in the faces that surrounded me.
Needy and blind, unhopeful, unlifted,
what gift would give them the gift to be gifted?
The giver is no less adrift
than those who are clamouring for the gift.
If they cannot claim it, if it is not there,
if their empty fingers beat the empty air
and the giver goes down on his knees in prayer
knows that all of his giving has been for naught
and that nothing was ever what he thought
and turns in his guilty bed to stare
at the starving multitudes standing there
and rises from bed to curse at heaven,
he must yet understand that to whom much is given
much will be taken, and justly so:
I cannot tell how much I owe.