The slow death
Each time I saw her,
I knew she would win the battle.
It wasn’t true.
The cloths of cold water
That I had placed on her head –
Praying to God for the fever to break.
Did God listen to me?
Yes, He did what I never understood.
Her lips closed her mouth in a thin straight line,
Her undid grey hair was left lose
By the nurses.
“You know I will be leaving soon”
She had said.
I did not care. I did not listen.
“Take me home as I want to cherish
My last days with you and your father.
Your father whom I loved and have spent
Forty one years.
Once I go you will feel the void,
You will feel cheated,
You will not be ready.”
I chose not to believe her.
I kept her in the hospital.
Tubes and masks covered her;
She gasped for breath
As I watched her petrified.
Will she live, I often wondered?
Yet each time I saw her,
I knew she would win the battle.
It wasn’t true.
She left me one day.
Not me, but us –
Me, my daughter and my father.
I was heart broken
So was my piece of world.
The fissures, valleys and also
The fragmented pavements.
Her death had whispered to me;
I should have trusted her.
I should have trusted God.
Mme Mazois (The Artist's Great-Aunt on her Deathbed) -- Henri Regnault
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